What a good night back 2 back and all worked so hard. Make me proud you all do, some DOMS coming your way tomoz 🍑🔥💪🏼💥💯✌🏻
What does taking a mental health day mean to you? What does it look like? What activities do you partake in or not partake in for that matter?
Yesterday, my body, my mind and my heart were telling me to stop. That I needed to be still. So I stopped. I literally stopped and did absolutely nothing. For the entire day. But I didn’t feel like it helped my spirit. I feel that it made me slip a little closer to that low, that sadness, or that ‘depression’ that hides around the corner sometimes. It made me feel like I was falling farther from my goals. This mental health day did not serve me at all. So I got to thinking that obviously what I thought I needed, wasn’t it at all. •
So I’m looking to you instafam, what is self care to you? Because I listened to my body and my spirit but I obviously didn’t hear it properly, because now I feel like I have a little more work to do. ♥️
Real Post. No filter, cover up or sugarcoating. Healing is hard! Being on a medicinal steroid like prednisone makes your hormones crazy, intense hunger pains and gives you acne like a teen. And holy under-eye bags Batman!! Sleep and rest is also vital to the healing process which is almost impossible when I’m legitimately “roiding out.” I managed to get a couple restless hours of “sleep” at 7am. The insomnia then causes brain fog and general bad decision making when it comes to the rest of my wellness plan. I ate something that either I couldn’t tolerate or was spoiled and have been in gut agony again breaking my nausea streak. I then get to turn around and disappoint my work and my bank account by not being able to keep my limited commitments. It’s as emotionally and physically draining as you can imagine. I felt I needed to post this to remind people of the true ups and downs of invisible illnesses and incurable conditions... while someone may be ok yesterday there’s no guarantee of tomorrow. Now, who has an awesome natural sleep remedy? #realpost#invisibleillness#notsoinvisible#chronsdisease#chronicillness#chronswarrior#nofilter#prednisone#steroids#insomniasucks
Can I be real for a second ?
Instagram is a highlight reel with few and far between accounts that post about real issues that people struggle with. •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
I’m one of them. I haven’t been honest for a long time. Never really truly made myself vulnerable until after I “made it to the other side.”
I haven’t made it to the other side yet in my mental health journey. It’s something that I’ve struggled with all my life & have recently been struggling with. •••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••
Lately I haven’t felt like myself. I don’t find joy in people around me, in the gym, and frankly it was a victory if I could get out of bed. I felt like I was living with a cloud of darkness over me and it was zapping all of my energy. I felt stuck. Then I got sick on top of it all which only exacerbated my symptoms. I didn’t know how I got to this point. But I came to realize how— I was striving for perfection— which was unrealistic! I wanted to work 5 days a week, train intensely everyday, eat super clean, be the best in my studies and still have an active social life— these aren’t bad things I wanted but i couldn’t find a balance; so I kept failing at each one which led me to my downward spiral.
So while I’ve been sick and pretty much bed ridden these past couple days I’ve done a lot of meditating & praying & focusing on my faith and have begun the healing process of so many past insecurities and traumas in my life. If anyone is struggling— know you are not alone. Seek community. Talking about it isn’t weird, it’s so important in the healing process ❤️
So I guess you saw this in my daily story. here you have me in the car, singing and dancing. After this I walked over to my friend Malins place for some barbeque. Super happy.
Second photo is a screenshot from my FaceTime with Malin when I had gotten home, just 1,5 hours after I arrived.
Have you ever felt a sudden buildup of stress in your entire body, and then the glass gets full and you can’t keep it together anymore? this happened to me today. it has happened many times before and are going to happen many times in the future. It has nothing to do with social anxiety for me, but maybe someone with that experiences the same situations?
I want to share both the good and the bad. Happy moments and sad moments. Because no one’s life are good all the time.
In these situations I feel lost. I feel terrified, scared and so frustrated. And I think it is important that we can show followers that some kind of shit happens to everyone.
The heaviest work is the work you do on yourself. It’s worth it 💕
I’m cheering for you 🙏🏼
I came across this quote in my gratitude journal today 🤗 at the same time my kiddos started fighting.... while they are supposed to be napping 🤷♀️🤦♀️ in that moment, I had 2 choices. Go angrily into the room, for the 3rd time, or go in gently. I went in upset 😢 See for the past 2 years I've been working on my PPA (post-partum anxiety/anger) so today was a win honestly. I'd rather go in upset than angry. Most days are good now. Phew! But I know my struggles are not over, YET. So today we grow again. Thankfully seeing this quote reminded me how far I've come and to not give up hope!
It doesn't matter what your goals are. I have many! Eat healthy, workout, cuddle, help other women, play, grow my income, and more. This is just one area of my life goals. ~ What are some of your goals?
Over the last 2.5 years, I found myself on a journey to discover what it meant to be ME while making room for others to be themselves as well.
I have wrestled with identity, struggled with humility, questioned my intellect, felt my humanity, argued with my purpose, cried over my selfishness, experienced more grace than I ever knew possible, and to be quite honest, I’m finally becoming comfortable with the knowledge that there really is no end to this process...only phases and seasons.
The one thing that I can truly say is over - apologizing for being me.
Because I’ve learned through this journey that light ALWAYS offends darkness.
So I say to the dark spaces to which I have been called, #ReadyOrNot, #HereICome. ————————————————————————
#MondaysforJesus: Confession Post
“I failed to make the connection in my heart that grace spurs us into holy living when I stopped trying to live holy in an effort to be accepted” - @jessaconnolly , Dance Stand Run ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
These words hit me like a rock! (I started reading the book yesterday and I have to say it’s not what I was expecting it to be about but it is obvious to me with every page it is exactly what I need.) I’ve felt a stir within me lately (a lot of the reason why I started Monday’s for Jesus again) and first chapter and this sentence put into words perfectly what I had been feeling. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
For the last couple of years I have been afraid to live holy because I didn’t want to feel like I was striving for God’s attention or for Him to accept or bless me because of what I had been doing and I didn’t want to feel like I was showing people I was “good”. So on the inside I was seeking and yearning for God but on the outside I was living relaxed and comfortable and was just being. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
But with the yearning in my heart and the conformation of this book I am realizing that because of God’s Holiness and grace I am holy. And I should openly live in, talk about, and seek more holy living. But also that it doesn’t mean that I can’t be me, cracking jokes or binge watch something on Netflix(sometimes even my favorite movie twice in a row on the same day😅), and it doesn’t mean I have to make sure I stop being a mess (because I don’t know I can ever not be one🤷🏽♀️). What it does mean is that I am just a girl who has nothing figured out living life, loving Jesus, and seeking and wanting to be like and shine His light a little more everyday and I can embrace and share all of that because that IS who I am. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
And that is so freeing!! ❤️
I can’t wait to read the rest of this book. And if anyone wants to read it with me, I would love to talk about it and grow with you! Let me know if you’re down!!! 😊
Why so serious, you may ask? The answer is simple & a bit complicated (sort of like me lol) 🤷🏻♀️ >This month from a life perspective has been nothing but magical ✨. However, from an IG perspective I’ve struggled with how I want to use this platform. I struggled with identifying & articulating my passions & what’s important to me. >Fortunately, all of that’s changed & the serious expression on my face is actually one of excitement coupled with concentration. Instead of focusing on this “keeping up with the Jones’” mentality (posting pic after pic, getting more likes than your peers) >I want to use this as a way for us to share in like experiences, to be vulnerable, to show we are strong & that it’s okay to cry. >The confident care free person u see dancing in the 🏔wasn’t always me & isn’t always me. >I’ve always been one to wear my ❤️ on my sleeve, so I want to do this through here & hopefully help some people along the way. >best time to start is now... Hi, I’m Lindsey Smith. #beyour1Mfollower
Question - Who do you follow and Why? .
Brutal PT session in the heat tonight @__kadilambex 💯💯💪🏼
“Sometimes I look at you and wonder how I got to be so damn lucky.”
If this isn’t the truest statement ever, I don’t know what is! We BOTH are so lucky and so blessed to have each other. .
When we met, I (Crystal) was engaged to an alcoholic & drug addict, and played around in that scary road of drugs and partying myself. I knew that wasn’t the life I wanted and thankfully realized that I was better than that. I needed to treat myself better, stop with that lifestyle, and move on to a better more fulfilled life. During that time of realization I met Seth, became good friends, and decided to take a leap of faith to stop settling. .
Fast forward nine years and you’ll see me healthy, happy, and living my best life with my best friend, my husband. Now THAT is why I know I am so blessed. 💜
With all of that being said, you don’t have to settle for a mediocre relationship, or a mediocre life. You CAN have EVERYTHING you ever dreamed of in a partner. It may take a lot of time and patience, but it CAN happen. .
Monday session smashed in the heat and 💯 effort given 💪🏼
Monday workout coming up....,💪🏼
“𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐲 𝐟𝐞𝐚𝐫.”
I’ve had this picture of me holding these words in my mind for over a month now.
In a season (and I’m talking a long one) where the enemy has thrown every lie at me pointing towards the big one being “You ARE bound by fear,” I have known that we needed to cancel out that lie. To say it’s been crazy hard is an understatement.
I don’t truly have the words to describe the pain I’ve walked through in the past year. Health battles and intense seasons of anxiety unlike any I’ve ever known. There’s been nothing easy about it.
The hardest seasons bring out so many “Why” questions. “Why Lord?” “Why so long?” The clearest answer I was given one day was, “Sometimes we walk through the valley of shadow of death, just to walk close with God.”
What the enemy wanted to use against me to destroy me, brought me only deeper into His presence. The harder the enemy pressed, the more grafted into the Kingdom I went.
I have cried. Oh the tears that have come out of weariness. I have felt the weight and burden of the battle, but have learned more in these past few months that the enemy’s attacks on my life are not mine to carry.
The sleepless nights, the scary panic attacks & cries for relief have echoed in my ear for long but today we saw breakthrough in huge ways.
When you’ve been contending & have been going to war for truth through the late night hours, you better believe that what is coming, is going to be great. I know He has been preparing me in this season for something greater.
I’m here to tell you friend that you ARE NOT bound by fear. You are NOT a victim to anxiety, to the health battle you’re facing or depression. You ARE bound by the love of the Father. The only kind of love that CASTS OUT FEAR!!
Remain faithful! I urge you to remain steadfast in Him and in Him alone as you walk through the valley. ⚔️
The enemy’s chains have been broken. Did you hear me? Those chains are GONE. The battle you’re facing, it has been won by Him.
Our experience with baby sleep.
When I was pregnant I was so excited to experience motherhood. But oh boy did I underestimate the judgement, decisions and guilt that came with it. To decide between what I FEEL is right or what people TELL me is right. This photo is when Grayson was 3.5 months old, this is when it hit me. I was contact napping often, and I just didn’t feel like setting him down in his crib for naps. He was entering the 4 month sleep regression and went from sleeping 5 hours straight to waking every 45 minutes. I began pulling him to bed for my sanity and it was the best decision I’ve made. But I woke up from a good sleep with my baby, feeling guilty. Like I wasn’t doing this right and I was creating bad habits. Mom guilt was real. Now I’m saying that and I laugh because it’s so untrue about creating bad habits.
When I started following my instincts and forgot about what everyone was telling me, I was so much happier and less tired (lol). But I hid it. I didn’t tell anyone that we were bed sharing. I felt ashamed and I felt alone. So I started doing research because there was no way I was the only mom that felt this way.
I found an amazing group called “Biologically Normal Infant Sleep” on Facebook and it changed my life. This is where I found out about biologically normal infant sleep and that everything I was doing, was right for my baby. I had the support of thousands of moms. A whole new world was opened up to me. I was not alone. In fact SO many moms experience what I experienced. The pressure from society to sleep train. .
I have zero judgement to what moms do with their baby. Whether you sleep train or how you sleep train or whatever you do. I may scroll passed a post about sleep training that triggers me but I will never judge. What I am passionate about is moms doing what they feel is right and not feeling bad about it. I can’t stand seeing moms feeling pressured to do something they don’t feel is right and in turn, ignore their motherly instincts. And the most annoying part is that the reasons they are told to sleep train are false. In my opinion anyway. .
Continued in comments.... (favourite Instagram accounts as well) ⬇️
Stella has hit terrible 2’s a few months early. For awhile, I felt like I failed her. She did bad things that I didn’t see other kids do at kid care. She’s a fighter and doesn’t go down until she gets what she wants. She screams, hits, throws things and she thinks spanking is a joke. I’ve actually cried about it because I felt like I was working too much, too tired when I got home from work and felt like I didn’t put enough effort into teaching her sharing, not to hit, being kind to others, how to calm down, etc etc. I was reminded by another Mom that every kid is different and she just so apparently hit terrible 2’s REAL HARD.
Other than that, she also has the sweetest soul ever ever ever ever. It confuses me. I’m still learning. I’m still trying. Mom guilt is SO REAL and I’m trying to not blame myself for the phase she’s going through right now. I’m just loving on her, praying for patience and learning to discipline. A post about my imperfect toddler, 22 months going on 16 ya’ll. 😂
Thank you to all who reached out to me after my last post. I really felt the love😭❤️. I am OKAY.🌸⠀
As I said in my last post, I’m just a little lost atm. Not sure what I want to get into next year, now, etc. I’m at a crossroads. But that’s okay, we all go through that at different points in life. I just wanted to express what I really felt in that moment and still feel lol. It’s not a sad feeling but one of curiosity, anxiety, and excitement. ⠀
Eu sempre me questionei se deveria dizer/mostrar mais sobre minha pequena empresa de sonhos aqui no perfil pessoal. Achava que não era necessário ou que meus seguidores e amigos não precisavam ver aqui o que já veem lá. Mas não, o que é bom precisa ser compartilhado o máximo possível! Portanto, a partir de hoje, terá uma vida real aqui e não só posts de dias felizes e #tbt. #vidareal#dreamdesigncriativo#realpost#empreendedorismofeminino
13th July 2017.
A memory came up on Facebook for me today - this day 2 years ago I accepted a place on a Masters!
In October 2015 I had graduated with a Grade 2 Second Class Honours in my Undergraduate Degree which was Biomedical Engineering. I struggled massively with my mental health all throughout my primary degree and I was quite unwell by the time I finished it in 2015. I went on to spend from June - September 2016 in Saint John of God’s Hospital in Dublin. After I was discharged in the September, I was still signed off as unfit for work - and this was to last until May 2018. But nobody said I couldn’t attempt some education while I was sick? I knew that if I was to stand a chance in the medical device industry, having graduated back in 2015 with almost just a Pass grade, I would have to bring my skills up to date to be able to compete with anyone now coming out of college with First Class Honours Degrees.
It was scary taking on a Masters, as my last experience in college was very difficult, but you never know until you try. Turns out, with the support of friends and family, you can really achieve things you never thought possible. I graduated with a Master of Science in Medical Device Regulatory Affairs in October 2018 - and I am now working for a fantastic company in the medical device industry as of December 2018. Mental health difficulties don’t have to be a block in life, sometimes you just have to be patient and figure out a way around them.
Who gives a fuck about my nightmares?
'Cause I can barely focus when I'm like this
And lately forty winks would be just priceless
I wrestle with myself and with my vices
But no one gives a fuck about my nightmares
It's all a bit of fun until somebody gets hurt
I take it with a pinch of salt, another bridge is burned
But I don't need to know what's real or not no more
I don't need to know what's real or not no more
No one gives a fuck about my nightmares
But it's nothin' you should worry yourself about